change of heart =p
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Add comment January 26, 2009
melody-thirst
freedom?nah…
i am feeling super duper gloomy. my mum didnt allow me to go to PD. but im still in the process of pujuk-ing. this afternoon was the worst attempt. i think i have excessive production of tears nowadays. rite when i heard she said, ‘u don’t lose much if u don’t go to pd. u just dont get to see your friends’ ;( she takes it so lightly. it’s not JUST i don’t get to see my friends. it means A LOT to me. when i heard her saying that, i couldnt speak, and i just cried instantly and locked myself up in my room. i’m not a prisoner that should be kept at home. whenever i say i wanna go out hanging out with my frens, i can feel she doesnt like it. it’s as if a CRIME for me to do so. and there i was, feeling guilty. guilt is part of me. i always say sorry. first bcos thats the worst feeling to me. and some people just have to say things to me to make me feel down and makes it seem all my fault. fine. that helps me to become a person who can say ’sorry’ anytime, everytime. so no ego problem in saying that. i noe it seems weird, but i lurrrvvve my taylors frens. well, monash is fine. but not ‘lurrrvvvee’ kinda feeling yet u noe. i dunno, maybe it takes time. it’s just that, i dont see any logical reason for not letting me go to PD…
just to make it clear, I do lurve my mum. i always wanna make her feel happy =) but since i was in school last time.. this has always been a problem.. i cant do this, i cant do that.. i feel so restricted.. my twin sister is now in oz, she can go anywhere in the world she wants..go to adelaide from brisbane to meet some friends? fine… go fruitpicking?fine…go watch movie at night?fine..everything is fine for her..and i wanna go to PD, just for 1 nite, is such a HUGE problem. i dont get it. i just dont. i noe i sound like an ungrateful super eew child, i admit i am. but i need a bit of freedom too.. i tell u, i can get crazy. i hope later on when i have kids myself, i will listen to what’s really important to them and give them some space.
’love is like a butterflly, if u don’t hold it properly, it will fly away from you, but if u hold it too tight, it will crush’. dont do that to me ;(
Add comment January 24, 2009
melody-thirst
complicated n complicating. yuppo.
hmm…hmmm…hmmm……..i’m thinking about…..ermm……:
1)how to get me start studying like a nerd …cos rite now i’m like a monkey jumping around the house
2)how to stop sleeping so much
3)how to stop being so forgetful until i got called ‘nyanyok’!!waaa…
4)how to stop eeeeaaaattttiiinnnnggg so muccchhhh that will make her sleep again…waaaaa
5)how to stop writing ‘waaaa…’ in every sentence that i need to express myself
6)how to stay calm n focus on the things that need to be done f-i-r-s-tttt. Priorities, nana!!!!
7)how to be a normal human being without being influenced by cats =p omg..this is a serious case. i don think they have come up with any name for this disease yet =p
well, my study table is in a mess and i have been studying on my bed for like wat? 2 months? i don think this is a good idea… eeeeee…. i need some normal-ness chemicals in my brain!!!
msg to:nananananannananananana…shut up n start doing ur work! from, nana
2 comments October 23, 2008
melody-thirst
exam is an alien word to me =p
wowee… for like after 7 months, i manage to have the feeling of blogging again, with a smile =D i’m not really sure of what the reason is.. maybe my brain has just given up its attempt to make me sound as sour as erm…pickles? =p i feel like jumping around like a monkey! i feel like singing! but i just realised if u stop singing for quite some time u will have difficulties trying to sing again …. without being a nuisance, that is =p i need my twinnie..jaju!! i can always sing with her around =D
i have exam coming in 2 weeks.. i should be freaking out! but just look at me rite now, in front of the comp n happily updating my blog =p i think its a slow reaction..im pretty sure i’ll start panicking as usual S-o-o-n =p i think it can be very sooonn.. im starting to feel the aura of exam approaching.. and i actually have hundreds and trillions of letters of words of sentences of paragraphs of essays of articles of lecture notes to be studied =p see how dramatic i am? haha.. bcause i havent studied ALL of THEM! eeww… but i will have to make sure i study! or else.. waa…..i don even wanna think about it!!! shhh… don’t shift my parasympathetic activity to be taken over by some unwanted sympathetic ativities =p heheh… its raining and im listening to some soothin emo songs.. =D i’m feeling so at ease! i wonder why… it’s weird.. but i want to stay feeling this way!
and owh owh owh!! tomorrow will be my last class in uni for this semester..and as a celebration my groupmate n i will have our own theme =p we’re gonna spray our hair with pink and blue hair colour spray! whee =D cant wait how i will turn out to be =p it’s either i’m gonna be semi alien or complete alien =P human is not in the list =p i’m so sad that pluto is not listed as 1 of the planets nimore =( i’m from pluto! how could they!! grrr…. hhehehe…nvm, im sure they can find another planet for me =p or else i will find myself in my own dreams..heheh.. i like to dream. n im not sure weder its a good thing, or it will just gimme false hopes =p but it’s okay.. its not wrong to dream.. i’m using my own brain anyway without harming others =p
well, thats all for now..whee.. i gotta study pharmacology and some pcl stuff about spina bifida which i just read, and forgot completely what i read about =p
saya sayang sayang sayang sayang kamu kamu kamu kamu kamu dan kamu =D tibe2 saya rindu banyak sangat orang! yang kat india tu pon sangat rindu!! =D
by, nana!! =D [i like it when people call me nana!!!]
4 comments October 16, 2008
melody-thirst
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